Along Came Aubrey: Tears and More Tears

Well, my first week of work is done and over with. Thank goodness! While I loved seeing everyone at work and getting back to the last release of our 2-year project, I missed Aubrey every second of every day I was at work. Monday was horrible....there you have it. I cried while running in the morning. I cried getting ready for work. I cried getting Aubrey ready for her first day at daycare. I cried kissing her good-bye and had the hardest time leaving the house. I cried on the drive to work. I cried whenever someone asked me about Aubrey and I even cried sitting by myself at my desk. I made it until 1:30 before calling daycare to see how she was doing and of course she was doing great. I shot out of work at 3:30 on the dot to go pick up Aubrey and cried when I saw her. I couldn't put her down when we got home...I just held her until Daddy got home, then I even cried some more. Everyone says it gets better, so I was hopeful for Tuesday. Well, it was worse than Monday! I think it started settling in that it wasn't just a one-day thing and that it was going to be Monday-Friday from now on. The week did eventually get better and by Thursday, I wasn't crying throughout the day. I still got teary-eyed leaving Aubrey, but it wasn't nearly as bad as the first couple of days. Daddy has made it much easier for me for the fact that he takes her to day-care every morning. I couldn't bear the idea of having to be the one leaving her there. He's much stronger than I am!

Aubrey is a very good baby at daycare and seems to really like her teachers, Ms. Pat and Ms. Becky. They are so sweet and caring towards her, so that does make me feel better. And seeing a smile on Aubrey's face when I go to pick her up makes my day. Just hope it gets easier for me being away from her! This is definitely harder for me than it is for her!

Grandma and Grandpa Trost also helped with the transition to daycare. Aubrey spent Friday with them and loved every minute of it! It put my mind to ease knowing Aubrey was with loved ones the last day of my first week at work. And it definitely made my day getting pictures of her throughout the day from them! They are thinking of making this a routine, so we will see! I know we would all love it!

Oh, and for that morning routine....I haven't made it out the door on time yet. It's so hard leaving Aubrey's smiling face in the morning! I'm so lucky to have such an understanding boss who knows what it's like coming back to work from maternity leave. Maybe next week will be better. :)